Bionic Mamas

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Updates of All Sorts


Hi, y’all.

I always wondered why so many bloggers suddenly stop posting as much after successfully getting knocked up. I figured mostly it was an abrupt slowing of narrative — particularly compared to the flurry of data that was IVF, early pregnancy is pretty low-key, leaving less that needs urgent discussion. What never occurred to me was what I think now must be the real reason, at least for some people besides me: crazy exhaustion.
I can’t complain much about my symptoms thus far — I do spend at least part of every day trying desperately to avoid vomiting, but it’s nothing like as bad as some have it; my waist vanished surprisingly early, despite my having lost several pounds in the past few weeks (not just OHSS weight, either), but I’m not sure my waist was ever one of my better features; my boobs hurt a lot, but I also love how they look — but heavens, I am tired. If I get any more low-energy, I may actually become a houseplant. And at the moment, I am a houseplant trying to teach summer school and plan a wedding.
Which is to say, sorry for posting less. Things will likely pick up in two weeks, after I stop waking up at night to fret about the number of tables in the church hall we’ve rented or why my mother has decided we need a bubble machine.
Yesterday, however, was not a slow day. Yesterday, I learned that how you get results from the OB practice that has been saying they’d call you back for the better part of a week and won’t let you even try to make an appointment (and at least this one takes both your insurance and new patients) is to have a hysterical, weeping tantrum about how upsetting it is that you can’t get signed up with them, the RE has dismissed you from the clinic (so your insurance is done with them), and now you’re spotting and have no where to go.
Suddenly, I had an appointment an hour later. I may not love the manner of the receptionist, but I must admit she did right by me.
The wee bean is fine, by the way. The sonographer was so sweet. She played the heartbeat for me when I couldn’t find it on the screen and asked after it in a terrified voice. She printed out a very fuzzy picture without my asking. We had talked about IVF, and when I half-apologized for freaking out about what really was a very tiny amount of bleeding, she said, “You’ve been through a lot.”
I met with an OB who isn’t the one Dr. Baby Factory recommended, but I like her well enough, I think. The practice rotates all OB patients through all doctors, so I don’t suppose it matters much who the main one is. She took my history and did a standard gyn exam, since it’s been a year since my last pap. Paps, really, since I get to have two — lucky me! She felt my uterus and said, “You feel pregnant!” That was surprisingly lovely to hear.
The less lovely part was when she said that my double-door womb situation may make a vaginal birth impossible. On one level, that’s not surprising: obviously, I don’t need a baby trying to come out of both cervices at once. Hearing it out loud was a bit of a gut-punch, though.
…and I have too much to say about *that* subject to possibly wrap this up in time to make it to school. So we’ll have to pick that thread up later. The doctor did say “may” not “will,” and we agreed to discuss it another time.

15 thoughts on “Updates of All Sorts

  1. So you have two cervixes but not two uteruses/uteri? Meaning the baby could choose which door to use? I hope there's some way to solve for that.

    Considered renting a doppler yet? I started using an at-home one at 14 weeks. Best present I ever made to myself. When you've been through IF, its so hard to relax and enjoy your pregnancy. You're always waiting for the other shoe to drop.

  2. So nice to hear from you! I've been wondering how you three are doing, and imagined it must be crazy busy with all you're planning. Glad everything is going well. You best get up some energy soon because with a little luck I'll be hounding you with questions in the next few weeks! 🙂

  3. so exciting! early scares can be just that, really scary, but its great when everything is ok and you get a photo to boot! (we had one similar episode!)

  4. Glad to hear everything is alright! Don't worry about the wedding too much, I'm sure it will be beautiful and all will go smoothly.

  5. yeah for getting right in! spotting was scary i bet, thank God all is well! but let me tell you girl, here I am almost 27 weeks and i have not stopped being scared. its that bitch IF that does it to us, but I will admit i am trying to enjoy every minute of this pregnancy no matter nervous or scared i sometimes feel. you will too, so excited for everything coming up for you guys! xoxox

  6. Great to hear all is well. Keep photosynthesizing 🙂

  7. I don't think I've been round to say hurrah! Congratulations! yet. So let me say that first:

    Hurrah! Congratulations!

    Glad all is still well with bean in the Room With the View. Also glad they could fit you in at the OB at once after all. Amazing, the power of the Weep.

  8. I am completely with you. I thought maybe people just got bored with posting once they had a bfp, but no they are likely just too tired to do anything!
    Happy to hear all is well. The panic is sometimes the best way to get acknowledged. Sad but true. Sounds like a pretty good clinic.

  9. Sounds like a pretty decent OB's office. Glad to hear everything is going well at this point.

  10. Good to hear that things are going well right now and I hope they continue to do so.

  11. Ditto on the tired. Ditto on losing my waist. Already. Ditto on the bleeding and the insta scan and the beating heart.

    Hugs to you, pg twin!

  12. Yup. Crazy exhaustion. Sigh. Just wait. 🙂

    Glad to hear things are good with the little one. Try not to worry about a c-section at this point. But honestly, my c-section was not scheduled, my water had broken, but I wasn't dilating or having productive contractions, yet I really felt like I had a beautiful, calm birth experience. Without pushing a melon out my vag.

  13. Not only did I have exhaustion but I also could not, no matter how hard I tried, put together a coherent thought. My mind was completely empty except for thinking of my next meal and wanting to sleep.

    Glad to hear your scan went well!

  14. I'm glad your wee bean is doing well and the heartbeat looked good. Sorry the doc was not all you'd hoped– rest assured you have time to switch if you decide you're uncomfortable. Good luck with the rest of the 1st tri!

  15. Thanks for your comment on my post. It is good to hear that other people have felt similarly and made it through. I couldn't figure out why I've been feeling so reluctant and heartbroken over the idea of IVF (I mean, who doesn't want to move on to a procedure with better odds), but I just realized…pre-HSG results, I was just your standard lesbian with no sperm in the house, post-HSG I undeniably suffer from subfertility. And so quickly!

    But enough of my downer comments on *your* post. I'm so glad to read you're vomitting and fully exhausted…just as you should be. Congrats on the good scan and the itty bitty heart beat.

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